I Almost Have No Air!

This post will be very vague....come to thing of it, my 3 years in University is coming to an imminent end soon. Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it "wasting" my precious time at where I am right now. Don't get me wrong. I really appreciate being what I am today. I felt really blessed at time. But other time I felt like being cursed and the pain get uncontrollable and consume me bit by bit. So lost. As if nothing else matters.

Destiny is both compassionate and cruel. Some say that everything is predestined while others argue that fate is in our very own hands. We decide our own future. How true is this? Nope. For what I have endured, destiny is never in our very own palms. We could only do our best for something that we have planned. The rest is "executed" by heaven (if you believe in it) and perhaps our own karma.

Crestfallen! Sometimes the pain is unbearable. It feels like I'm becoming a demon-possessed by the darker side of me. But all this while, my families has been there to "save" me. They are always by my side to tell me that my existence do bear some meaning. Is this the life that I want? There's too many uncertainty that surround me. A dark shadow envelop my sight and blanket my heart. Time after time I'm shackled to the ground. But no matter down I am, there will always be a glimmer of light in the deepest recesses of my soul-the love of my family.

My heart is still beating...

Dad, mom, bro and wife, thanks for being there for me. You guys are my air. For every breath I take is because of you. I'm grateful. Truly I am. Thanks for giving me the hope that I need. I love you all. Let us all appreciate what we have and not bemoan for what we don't have. Thank you!!!

Mahathir's Retaliation?

Mahathir had quited UMNO. He also openly admit it's a move to oust Abdullah. Some see it as a shocking move by the Malaysian ex-PM. But I am not taken aback at all by his latest plot. A few would have expect him to drop this bombshell for a long, long time. Even Musa, Mahathir's ex-deputy sees his exit as blessing in disguise. I utterly agree that Mahathir has become very unbecoming lately and he is not only a thorn in the flash for UMNO, but to Malaysia.

You will if you take a step back.

Don't get me wrong. I have utmost respect for Mahathir who once single-handedly rescued Malaysia from the 1997 economy crisis by pegging our ringgit. BUT now he is turning into a villain or some sort. That respect has been fading. It's enough he had sabotaged UMNO and BN. And now Malaysia is beginning to feel the ripples of his selfish acts. Where is the ex-Premier who once put BN and Malaysia before himself?

Again and again, he had criticized Abdullah for not being fit for UMNO. But from what I see, Mahathir is desperate to get rid of Abdullah because he is deemed UNFIT for Mahathir himself. UNFIT to cover up all the messes he made for 20 years. I'm sure Mahathirism purist will not agree. But why did Mahathir repeatedly does something that is hurting Malaysian as a whole?

Can Abdullah hang on?

Mahathir insist that his so-called radical move is essential to remove "gangrene" in order for UMNO to survive. Mahathir looks more like the gangrene to me. He even encourage other UMNO members to join him in his exodus. Is this rational? His move is rather impulsive and maybe PAS' Ismail Wan Teh did help a bit to spark the flame (so now Mahathir is under PAS shadow?). Obviously Mahathir's provocative approach to mount pressure on Abdullah revealed how desperate he is to stop Abdullah from putting him behind bars.

I thing he did!

Mahathir and Abdullah's saga started 4 years ago. But lately this storm has brew to an uncontrollable issue. Prior to the Malaysian's general election, the "enlightment" of Lingam case had certainly made Mahathir trembling on his fate. So armed with BN heaviest defeat in history. Mahathir wanted to make Abdullah the scapegoat and oust him. Then he could replace (or suggest) someone that will cover up all his trail of wrongdoings.

Vengeance?

Abdullah, our so-called sleeping PM is not going to give in to Mahathir's political gameplay. A few days ago the Royal Commision had proposed Mahathir to be one of the six high prolific person to be probed. Mahathir could be the mastermind who framed his then ambitious deputy-Anwar. He framed Anwar for abusing his power and even end up sodomizing another guy. The allegation on Anwar was a blatant fabrication. Appararently Mahathir is the one who had abuse his power to made the judge obeyed his wishes. If the probe does go on, Mahathir's reputation will be tarnished and the possibility of him finishing his remainder of life in bars is imminent.

Here's a snippet of what Malaysian Ex-Premier got to say for his latest political ploy. Does his words still worth our listening?

So can, Mahathir who is riding on his still-burning political flame get out of this duel unscathed? Or will he succumb to his own traps? He is influential but his beacon is waning every second. Will the "useless" Abdullah be able to stand on his ground till the last minute and prove his worth? Who is right? Or is the culprit? That...we will see. =)

From Wardrobe To The Caspian Sea!

A year after the Pevensie children found a secret entrance through the full of fur coat-wardrobe that led to Narnia; this time their entrance is much dramatic! The whole subway station where they were waiting for the train tore apart to become Narnia. Talking about grand welcome. But they are not the main heroes here!

Everything you know is about
to change forever! REALLY??

So this week's Monday Blues will feature the sequel of the Sang Singa, Nenek Kebayan dan Almari (loosely translated Malaysian language of The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe). Enter Prince Caspian. There's lots of hype for this sequel. The 1st Narnia installment IMHO was a disappointment. Let's see if the latest can save the whole Narnia franchise from sinking.

25-years-old Ben Barnes.
Looks can be deceiving huh!

Prince Caspian played by Ben Barnes is actually older than the director thought. He was mistakenly thought to be 17 years old when he is actually 8 years senior than what he looks (25). He does look young huh? Whether this Narnia succeed or not will depend much on how Caspian perform. Judging from the trailer, we could be in for a good time. Hit the cinema and watch for yourself how Prince Caspian become the King Caspian!

Will this battle be an epic? Or just another flop?

And yeah! Notice that the title: From Wardrobe To Caspian Sea? Well actually both the wardrobe and the caspian sea were intended to denote the 1st and the current Narnia. BUT...the movie Prince Caspian has nothing to do with the Caspian Sea. BUT (another), there is this place called Caspian Sea. In fact it's the largest lake which is sandwiched between Russia and Iran. That will help in your geography!

Behold the Caspian Sea.
But has nothing to do with Prince Caspian!

Anyway, this will be a long week. Try to catch it in cinema with your spouse, family or friends. Expect a Disneyland kind of journey for this movie. And as for Malaysian, you can watch it at RM8 ($2.7) at GSC tomorrow. There are special rates at GSC every Wednesday. Hopefully you guys will enjoy it. For the time being, here's the trailer. =)